Wine Talk with Amber

Sometimes I have to just stop thinking about what I want to write and actually just start writing! Sometimes my emotions are all over the place and I don’t know who to turn to and who can make it better. But I know that it’s okay. Because I have this keyboard, and I have these thoughts. Even if you don’t understand, you’ll at least know how I feel. And right now this is how I feel. I am walking on this path with no guidance and no protection. Why am I doing this alone? Why is no one on this journey with me? How come I can’t come home to someone and tell them about my bad day and get a foot rub because I’ve worked so hard and I deserved it? Now I admit, I turn so many guys down a day and then some I only talk to because I don’t want to feel alone. I know it sounds bad but it’s the honest truth. And that’s what this blog is about, my truth. I want someone special. Someone to appreciate all the things AMBER comes with. It’s not always just good looks and a giggly attitude. It’s much more...

Why do I feel like this? Like I’m secluded. How am I supposed to be a good friend to you yet you act as if I don’t exist. And it’s not just you. It’s all of you. Why do I have to beg to be included in your world? We’ve been doing this for years now yet, I have to scream and shout for you to realize I care? Why do I have to guess and wonder from the outside? I’m standing right outside your window of life. You keep telling me that I’m invited inside anytime but when I go to turn the knob the door is locked. But then you yell at me for not entering the house. I’m trying to explain to you that the door is locked. I want to come in but I can’t. I’m standing at this door all alone. Now, I admit. I can be selfish. In fact I’m more likely to be selfish than generous. But that’s because when I was introduced to someone like you, I didn't want to lose it. But why won’t you let me in? Is it because you think I’m too stuck in my own world to realize what’s happening in yours? Why do I have to...