A Seed We’ll Never Get to See Grow...

I’ll admit,

I was a tough lover.

Very stubborn.

Possessive.

But more than anything, unwilling to grow.


I was stuck in the soil of my own stagnancy.

My seed was ready to be planted,

But I wouldn’t provide you with the hydration,

I didn’t administer the sunlight.

Yet, I expected to be grown into a fully blossomed flower.


Well guess what?

I ran to the highest body of water flow that I could find.

And captured the sweetest views of summer time sunshine...

To bring to you.

Only to find: it was too late, you had taken my seed.

You had taken our seed away. 


The seed,

Waiting for the grand opportunity to flourish.

Was ripped out of the ground,

Due to your reluctance to love me in my entirety. 

With all my blemishes. And all my bruises.


And then I realize:

The seed that was snatched from me will be used to plant someone else’s garden.

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